Friday, September 17, 2010


Okay - I admit it ... I'm homesick. I'm homesick for my family, friends, Friday Night Rice Group (FNRG), our church, comforts of home, beauty of Surprise (the sunrises and sunsets), having a car, driving to the store, familiar foods, and a lot more. I really hadn't verbalized any of this until this morning.

When I woke up this morning and lay in bed, my mind began conjuring up all the reasons why we shouldn't return to Jakarta in January (maybe you didn't know we are planning to do this). I think the only one that carried any merit is the essence of danger here. Living in a predominantly Muslim society does have its dangers. Because of the pastor in Florida that planned to burn 200 Koran on 9/11, we've had security warnings from the US Embassy not to go places where mobs gather. Jakarta would be a place to stay away from and that's where we go to church.

In other words, my spirit was whining!! I lay there for a while thinking of these things and I knew I was wrong. I began to pray and ask God for His peace. I got up (Harry was still snoozing) and came to the living room to do my devotions. I've been reading in Galatians. This morning took me to Galatians 5. Paul starts out talking about the freedom we have as believers, not by living under the Law, but by being justified by faith through Christ Jesus. As I read along, I came to verse 7 and 8:

"You were running well, who hindered you from obeying the truth? This persuasion did not come from Him who calls you."

I stopped dead in my tracks. That's exactly what "someone" (Satan) was trying to do - persuade me into false thinking. The truth is that God said, "Follow Me," and in obedience we did - to Indonesia.

I began thinking of what He called us to; to be His light in a very dark and needy world. Our responsibility is to be faithful to that calling - no matter how big a task or how small. As I pondered this truth, Matthew 25:23 came to mind. Jesus was speaking about the parable of the talents when He said,

"His master said to him, 'Well done, good and faithful slave (servant). You were faithful with a few things, I will put you in charge of many things; enter into the joy of your master.' "

Anything God calls us to is not small when we are obedient to Him. The task itself may not be large, and may not be complex or complicated. In our case, we are very comfortable in a nice apartment. We have shelter, a place to sleep, food to eat, clothes to wear, people to love and who love us, a lot of time to read and enjoy each other, a beautiful view
from our window, comfortable weather (yes, even the humidity), and we just returned from a vacation in Bali. We are incredibly blessed compared to a large percentage of the world.

More than all of these comforts - and they are exactly that - comforts, we have students who need the light and love of Jesus to ooze all over them. That is easy for me. It would be easy to consider this calling less or small because I am not fighting starvation (although it is here), I am not sleeping in quarters with rats and cockroaches or lots of mosquitoes, my food is not infested with worms or bugs - I've got it pretty nice here.

This is my training ground. Jesus said if we are faithful in a few things, He will put us in charge of many things. The Holy Spirit has been my disciplinarian this morning and I'm thankful that He loves me enough to chasten me and is patient. His gentle voice and love renew my spirit and tears cleanse my soul.

Lord, forgive my spirit for whining. You've given me a calling that is precious to you and if just one student comes to know You, it is worth all the treasure in the world.

The cry of my heart is: Lord, may I be faithful in the few things you've given me to do here. Little is much when God is in it. May I live in the joy of my Master.


  1. Loved your post. You're right on track. By the way, I found you via your husband, ProfessorHMS on Twitter. May the Lord continue to bless and protect you.

  2. Awww, I can relate mama. Although we have settled in and are loving Africa so much, I feel my heart being torn from one continent to another. I am tagging along with Renee and Katie while I pray through why God has us in this very place, which was not the plan. They have large NGO's and help so many people on a daily basis and some days I just feel like I'm not doing enough. And then I look at Brian. So many days he is still so ill and I thank God that he chose me to be there in Nkumba when Bri was at the worst. And even though he is still sick, he no longer vomits in a trash pile or alone without a mama. He tells me he loves me at least as many times per day as CR, and most days because of my boys my heart is overflowing. I pray I can do a good job with what He has given thus far so that He can trust me with more.

    I miss you and FNRN too! Big ole moon tonight ;)

    XX's and OO's from the Village of Masese in Ug,

  3. Ceci,
    Thanks for sharing your heart and soul with us! I love hearing from our Lord and surrender, no matter how hard it is, is always sweet. You are so special and the joy of the Lord does oooooz out of you onto all who know you. I pray that the Lord continues to speak to you to bring comfort and peace! Your life is impacting the kingdom of God and the enemy does NOT like it. No wonder you were feeling attacked/discouraged.

    Love to you!